push

im feeling natural right now. and slightly lonely. i feel like i keep pushing everybody away and just want to be alone. i cant even explain my condition right now, im pushing everyone away when i need them at the most. i keep thinking i need to be alone and i can survive this feeling by keeping it on my own. that is the normal me. i never tell anyone about my real feelings. yeah i still smiling, laughing, being goofy but nothing is actually okay. so im here to say that im sorry to anyone that feels like im trying to stay away from your life. im sorry.