glamor ker?

my day started with having breakfast. i woke up pretty early even i have to work at 2. then prepare to go to work. at work place ive done nothing but looking at clothes bar code and counting those clothes. it was boring. then at 10, we all, FOS staff change our clothes and the day started to get a little interesting.

i went to Doll Restaurant with Fiq, cause im the only one there who still dont have a car and license. while others drove their own cars. once we got there, everything was set on the table. some of them already waited for us. gosh why in the hell im writing this way? is it just me feel boring or you too feels it while reading this? haha

okay. we ate, laughed, and telling jokes to each other. in my last post, ingat the tema? red and white. yeah everybody wore red and white except our assistant manager. i was like " why is he invited anyway?" then, cabutan bertuah. haha Fiq started to give each one of us a piece of rolled paper and it were taped. the funny part was we have trouble to fucking open the tape. haha. then when i opened mine, it said "PALING GLAMOR. FUYOO MEMENG GLAMOR" i was like "wtf it supposed to mean?" then they all getting excited to see what each of us got, some got "haha layak dapat saguhati jer" other got " your beautiful, tiru macam saye" somethng like that. i was still blur, still figuring out whats going on. then, rupe2 nye ade lak competition untuk baju tercantik and terglamor. adeh. tapi buat cabutan. haha. anyway im tired, thats why im writing like this. i got a present, a clay-made door hanger. written FOS 2011. im happy.

i dont know why im telling you guys these stupid details, but, i am blessed to be around with awesome crowd and great co-workers. good night people.

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wish nothing but the best

today: woke up early in the morning, get ready for my driving lesson. and i had my qualification test from the institute and i passed. its kinda funny cause once i got the car, dengan confident nye just buat 10 things before you drive the car. and the instructor dont even looked at what im doing. then die, " dah buat sume?" i was like, "dah!" (dengan cinfident mcm palat-nye) then he said " klu dah kenapa x bunyi hon? kenape x pakai seat belt lagi?". fuh, malu sial. but anyway, i passed the test. its like just driving around the institute not the JPJ's route.

tomorrow: so FOS planned this dinner among the staff. so yeah, tomorrow after closing our store, we will head to somewhere to have a dinner. bersemangat tuh, "tema kita malam nanti putih and merah" i was laughing when the first time i heard that before i realised they dont fucking kidding. so i looked over my closet and thank God, ade plak this one t-shirt putih berkolar merah..haha dah lame x pakai cause its kinda gay-ish sikit. bare chest siket. haha. but heck i dont care, they will be more less care anyway. hope tomorrow night will be great :)

what the presenter said before she performed is fucking TRUE

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push

im feeling natural right now. and slightly lonely. i feel like i keep pushing everybody away and just want to be alone. i cant even explain my condition right now, im pushing everyone away when i need them at the most. i keep thinking i need to be alone and i can survive this feeling by keeping it on my own. that is the normal me. i never tell anyone about my real feelings. yeah i still smiling, laughing, being goofy but nothing is actually okay. so im here to say that im sorry to anyone that feels like im trying to stay away from your life. im sorry.

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survey 18/2/11

dah lame x buat. im soo bored. igt zaman myspace buat bende ni and post on bulletin. i dont really know whats the point of doing this anyway.

Take this survey

1. Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?
closed

2. Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel?
yeah. haha

3. Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out?
in

4. Have you ever stolen a street sign before?
nope

5. Do you like to use post-it notes?
yessss. when i was in school. for sejarah's text book :)

6. Do you cut out coupons but then never use them?
yes.

7. Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees?
big bear

8. Do you have freckles?
no

9. Do you always smile for pictures?
not really.

10. What is your biggest pet peeve?
People who invite me out somewhere then cancel.

11. Do you ever count your steps when you walk?
haaa no.

12. Have you ever peed in the woods?
yes :)

13. What about pooped in the woods?
no.

14. Do you ever dance even if theres no music playing?
yeah, music in my head, thats all i need.

15. Do you chew your pens and pencils?
no.

16. How many people have you slept with this week?
27361827362123

17. What size is your bed?
queen

18. What is your Song of the week?
Born This Way

19. Is it okay for guys to wear pink?
depends on the colour and the person who wears it.

20. Do you still watch cartoons?
nope.

21. Whats your least favorite movie?
yesterday i watched Green Hornet. blah.

22. Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some?
not really.

23. What do you drink with dinner?
plain water

24. What do you dip a chicken nugget in?
nothing.

25. What is your favorite food?
chocolate

26. What movies could you watch over and over and still love?
The Devil Wears Prada.

27. Last person you kissed/kissed you?
nobody.

28. Were you ever a boy/girl scout?
never.

29. Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine?
hahaha no.

30. When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper?
school days i guess.

31. Can you change the oil on a car?
no.

32. Ever gotten a speeding ticket?
what?

33. Ran out of gas?
not YET.

34. Favorite kind of sandwich?
anything with mayonis in it

35 Best thing to eat for breakfast?
french toast

36. What is your usual bedtime?
half past midnight

37. Are you lazy?
not really.

38. When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween?
-

39. What is your Chinese astrological sign?
-

40. How many languages can you speak?
not much

41. Do you have any magazine subscriptions?
no.

42..Which are better legos or lincoln logs?
lego

43. Are you stubborn?
sometimes

44. Who is better...Leno or Letterman?
i dont know

45. Ever watch soap operas?
nope

46. Afraid of heights?
nah

47. Sing in the car?
yes, sing along with the radio, yes.

48. Dance in the shower?
yes, haha.

49. Dance in the car?
rarely

50. Ever used a gun?
nope. just touched one.

51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?
heeee

52. Do you think musicals are cheesy?
no

53. Is Christmas stressful?
-

54. Ever eat a pierogi?
is it like karipap?

55. Favorite type of fruit pie?
apple

56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?
doctor and ballet dancer. W-T-F

57. Do you believe in ghosts?
yeah

58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?
yup.

59. Take a vitamin daily?
yes, vit C

60. Wear slippers?
yeah

61. Wear a bath robe?
nope, towels

62. What do you wear to bed?
tees and track bottom

63. First concert?
idk

64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?
none

65. Nike or Adidas?
hahahhh idk

66.Cheetos Or Fritos?
-

67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?
sunflower

68. Ever hear of the group Tres Bien?
nah

69. Ever take dance lessons?
nope

70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?
dont have any idea about that

71. Can you curl your tongue?
yup

72. Ever won a spelling bee?
nope

73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy?
yeah

74. Own any record albums?
sadly, no.

75. Own a record player?
no.

76. Regularly burn incense?
nope

77. Ever been in love?
yeah

78. Who would you like to see in concert?
Lady Gaga

79. What was the last concert you saw?
heee

80.Hot tea or cold tea?
hot

81.Tea or coffee?
coffee

82. Sugar or snickerdoodles?
sugar

83.Can you swim well?
cant swim

84.Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?
yes

85. Are you patient?
yeah. i think.

86. DJ or band, at a wedding?
band

87.Ever won a contest?
yes, but cant tell, its amberassing.

88. Ever have plastic surgery?
haha

89. Which are better black or green olives?
black? the one on the top of pizza

90.Can you knit or crochet?
nope

91. Best room for a fireplace?
reading room

92. Do you want to get married?
-

93. If married, how long have you been married?
-

94. Who was your HS crush?
haha cant tell.

95. Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way?
not really.

96. Do you have kids?
no

97. Do you want kids?
yes

98. Whats your favorite color?
currently, white.

99. Do you miss anyone right now?
hell yeah.

100. Did you watch, Next Great American Band on FOX?
nope

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this makes me excited

cannot wait for the 2011 version. hee~

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my old self

hari nih best siket. kenapa? sebab kawan3 lame stop by kt FOS tadi, haha. paan, shahrul, rashid and syuk. best2. dah lame x jumpe, since amek spm arituh kot. jumpe je gelak2. walaupun jumpe kejap jer. waktu rehat. like 2 hours. memang x cukup. sampai they all came to my store and stay there and we laughing our heads off. sampai when they left, my supervisor panggil i was like 'fuck mesti kene marah nih', i was right. 'lame nye borak, siap berkampung lagi, awak tu kerje, lain kali akak bagi borak 2 minutes jer'. first time tuh kene marah. but i dont even felt guilty or anything. im happy, happy to see my friends, and actually dah lame gile x gelak mcm tadi. then i was thinking, x kesah lah kene marah pown as long i can feel like myself, my old self. yeah lately im wondering that maybe im such a fake when im working. they dont even know who i am really like. yeah, i took time to reveal to people my real self, but at work, its totally different. gosh, i miss my old self. i miss my friends. then when my supervisor get mad at me, i was thinking 'youre getting fired dude' haha. there was a part of me that dont really care if i got fired. theres tonnes other jobs out there. but im not fired, that would be crazy. but one thing that makes me happy today, i was fucking laughing.

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letter lagi touching bhai :)

well, its not a love letter. no. heck no. haha. i received a letter from my good friend, Arif Amzar, or we call him Lalat. dont ask why. semalam balik kerje and my mom said i got a letter from Amzar. Mgg quite blurr sebab penat and i was like who the hell is Amzar cause i call him Lalat. then i saw this PLKN pye lambang (since die sedang berkhidmat) im sooo excited smpi nak terkoyak kertas tuh.. then i read it, shit. its fucking sad. He thanked my family and i for all this years letting him stayed at my house when we were still in Saser. and he said thanks for being his friend and tought him to dance GEE. and he said he misses everybody, yuna, haqim, cikgu jennyta( our fav physics teacher, we used to have private class with her, i miss that moment) and ainul. i dont have to tell more about ainul. haha its the funny part. then terus call die. i said im sorry didnt call him mase CNY break cause im working and busy. we talked almost one hour. i wish i could reply but naaahh i forgot to ask his address there.

received a letter from a friend who still in PLKN program makes me feels like we were still in war and letter is the only way to connect(since Lalat is PLKN-ing) and i makes me thinking about the vintage movies i watched. well i seriously merepek tak tentu pasal sekang. i better stop. im just tired. thanks for reading this pointless blog :) ( walaupun tau xde sape bace)

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OFF day.

well im not working today. dah 12 hari keje hari ni baru dapat cuti..haha working non stop wasnt that bad. sitting home wasnt bad either. well ive planned what i want to do on my off day days ago. what i want to do is just sitting home, doing things i love to do. give a time for myself. i want to facebooking, twittering, blogging, reading my novel, listening to my music, sleeping, watching how i met your mother, watching movies online. well, i dont aspect to go to my school though. yeah. i went to SASER. it was funny cause its been months im leaving saser but when my teacher called my early in the morning asking for my help made me feel like saser still need me, in sort of ways. but it totally made my day.

i used to get this feelings when it was the end of school holiday and i have to get in the car with my stuff and drove to school. the beat of my heart getting faster and faster in the second my car reaching the gate of the school. well, thats how i felt today when im reaching SASER. the school looks the same, the amazing people still the same, the air, the atmosphere is the same. i wish i could stay a little bit longer with my teachers and greet every single one of them. i missed them so much. i was pleased to see them doing what they always do in the staff room. well, okay moving on, sorry this post will be quite longer than i thought.

now i realised that i love to watch British historical drama, or vintage movies. and i love Keira Knightly. now im watching The Duchess. still keeping my head up. i wish this day turn up a little bit longer.

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the world keep spinning.

i seriously dont know what to write, my life just goes on and on, since ive work right now it seems the my world spinning faster. i forget about the things that used to bother me. its true when you work, your other problems will just gone, well not forever, for a while. at least youre forget about it. the busier you get the less you care about anything around you. even your past. but once im back at home, logged in my facebook, the eerie and shits feelings crawl back and it will stop when i start my work the next day. well enough of that.

so working at clothing store, huh? since the first day, people are speaking chinese to me. it was quite awkward on the first day. but now its just a moment when i just smile and let them guess themself that i am not be able to reply in chinese. haha. im not saying its the most amazing job in the world. but ive learnt a lot and still learning. now i know how hard it is to gain money. it makes me realized how important the education and what it can do in our future. i cant wait to future my studies. hope everything will be okay. well, everything will end up right, right? it always like that.

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