Listening to- Lenka's Two album.
fuhfuh dah berhabuk ke blog nih? *statement orang lama tak update*
yes lame jugak lah tapi bukan tak log in, logged in pun nak dengar lagu dekat blog but i still read all your posts dont worry. (yang aku follow lah)
so whats up?
dah berhenti kerja, yes, beri tepukan, but now macam bosan pulak duduk rumah, okay memang dah ready pun untuk jadi bosan but im gonna use all my time doing things i love. enough of that.
and my mara interview pun dah lepas. Alhamdulillah. kelaka, memang kelakar. buat penat habiskan masa merisaukan diri sebab interview. tapi tak pe, im glad its done. thank you kepada sesiapa yang beri nasihat about to face interview. and now its all about hope and pray.
and graduasi saser. okay nothing much to talk here but, i am sure now. everything is so clear that all the shitty feelings just gone. just gone okay. at once i think i can let things go, i can breathe.and you, you're not on my main page anymore. i just stop thinking about you. now i can't wait whats waiting for me in future. even sometimes its scary to think of it. im ready. so ready.
and now i couldn't help to think about vacation. the other day my friend, Haqim just have this crazy idea why not we just take a vacation, a getaway maybe? i dont know cause its kinda fun. dah bosan with city and KL and shopping mall oh common. im thinking about beach, waterfall, nature, something like that, but i know it wont be easy for my parents to give any permissions. of course. but my holiday wont be that any longer anymore, May is coming up. and study season will start any time soon.
*sorry for this cheesy post. i just want to post something to keep my blog alive. i'll comeback for more.
Thursday, April 28, 2011
forget
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
hidup
took a lot of guts for me even started to write but anyway, hi everyone.
first of all, i got MARA interview and today i found out they want us to write 300 words of essay. i still dont have any idea what kind of essay they want, but im gonna just go with it.
and in two days, i will be back to where i used to be, jobless. and im not ready to face the long hours of thinking about things i dont want to think, the feelings that i tried to escape these three months. but still, im stuck. im nowhere, nothing moved. but im still thanking God cause i am around the people who i can make them smile and they are there for me to make me smile. even just a second.
Kadang-kadang dalam hidup ini kalau dah payah sangat apa yang boleh buat hanyalah BERSYUKUR. yes. everybody says they are being content in life but really? do you even know what it is to be grateful?
now im just going to think about whats going on now, stop worrying about tomorrow, and stop regretting about yesterday. i just want to be okay. okay? please you little freaking feelings, be good.
Saturday, April 9, 2011
APRIL
a lot of things happened these couple of days and if i can recall one of those days i loved to post everything that happening in my life here, but now its different. i dont know it seems i need to take a lot of courage to even start a blog nowdays. and i hate that. maybe it because of twitter? im stuck on that thing for hours and hours but still i felt a little weight on my shoulder just evaporates slowly when im tweet, because i tweet whats going on in my mind and i dont really care what people going to think about my tweet, but i still missed my blog. because i can write more here.
i read my old posts yesterday and couldnt help to laugh at my writing but hey, im glad that i made it here. im not saying my english is superb but its improving. i guess. so dont check my writing now.
its April. right? time flies so fast that i still thinking its December. 2010. just finished my bio paper but wow i cant help to feel a little bit uneasy cause today list for JPA interview was up. and i think MARA will be soon to come and im not ready at all. A part of me says its okay, i dont need the scholarship cause studying here in Malaysia wont be that bad and other part of me want that scholarship soooo bad. but im still going to leave it to Allah. He knows best.