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Im here.

Yes these couple of weeks had been great for me. Alhamdulillah. Everything went fine. Classes as usual, sleep as usual. I like it. Somehow i thought maybe exam makes us emotional, makes us want to kill ourselves or other people. But we know we got to get through it, and when its done, we can finally breathe and wait until the NEXT exam. Of course.

Im collecting myself nowdays. I want to be free. I want to be myself as much as I can. And I could see people can except me the way I am just because I can except them the way they are. Maybe sometimes I feel that some of them trying to stay away from me, trying to let me go, but it's fine, it's okay. Cause I know I have more great people around me who willing to be with me as much I want to be with them.

And I know Im holding my guards up now. I dont want to know about anything anymore. I mean, about love. I dont want to care how is it feels to be love or loving somebody. I dont want to be hurt just because its not going to work the way I wanted it to.

So, Im going to be more focus on myself.

AND... Ive done reading Water For Elephants. Now I moved on to P.S. I Love You. I know, I know. I cant help to read romance. Shut up. OK bye.

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Time turns flames to ambers

Hai.

say hi to Jessica. i love her now.

Its kinda awkward to post anything here. And im posting once a month which makes things worse. but anyway, i have some kind of promise i made to myself. i want to keep this blog alive no matter what. SO. Stick here okay?

August left me with a lot of new things, well, i hate most of it, but still im grateful im still breathing and still strong to move along.

Mid sem exam. tak payah cakap lah kan. I think im the only one who got that kind of results. I mean failed for every single paper. HAH! Im okay with that. I dont mind to start from the ground. I dont mind if this happened just to make me realise that im not that good anymore, in study. I have to start living and stop whining.

Ramadhan. The month of blessed. Forgiveness. i learned a lot during Ramadhan. I miss it now. really.

Raya. Great. Ezral is here with me since he cant go back to Sabah. Kesian. Tak pe family aku pun bukan raya sakan nak buatkan die rindu kat family die. Raya this year. hmmm. like always people will say this : The excitement of raya is lessen as we get older. Yeah its true. But if you are the one who make it less exciting.

So, what i can say now i just have to wait what's going to happen after this raya holiday. We want to change to better. For better. But we often fail to do that. But i believe in Allah. Its not the end of the world if He is still there for me.

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