Nights

Well Hi.

I'm currently on my semester break and to be honest I haven't even gone out of the house for three whole weeks now, and I don't even want to. And of course I don't sleep at night anymore, instead I'll start drifting into the dreamland while the sun rises, oh well. One interesting thing about staying up late at night or not even sleep when its dark outside is the tranquility. My mind almost free from many thoughts, instead I could think about one particular thing at the time. Usually I could relive the past memories, my childhood memories, every details, from the smells, sights, touch and how I felt that time.

Well I believe as we grew older, we tend to repress the unwanted memories and instead, we remember the memories that we want to remember, more often the happy memories. But for me, I like to relive and go back in time to the odd memories that made me feel embarrassed, sad, humiliated or betrayed because those memories, ah, they are the one that help me to become who I am now. Not saying happy memories are bad or anything, but it is important to know the event that takes place in your life that change the way you think and act.

And yes, I have a lot of bitter memories, and its funny when you were a kid you don't fully understand how certain events can hurt your feeling and it might hurt you now when you start thinking it through, but for me, it is up to me to turn the negativity into something good and positive. Many people might said they want to be a kid again, bla bla bla. but not me. I want to relive that moment but with my level of intelligence and maturity I have now. Well things might turn out differently of course, but I want to see how much changes I can make.

Okay this is getting weird now.

There are a lot more stuff I do while staying up on the night while everybody else asleep, but this particular activity ( if its even an activity ) is the one I found interesting to share. (or maybe not) (okay)

I'll post my summary of 2013 on the next entry. Take care, be kind.

Leia Mais