That Kid.

Things change.
No matter how much you wish thing stays as what it is, it will eventually change. And the hardest things to do are saying goodbye to what is almost perfect and move on. I found myself in the strange place when I have to start all over again, mostly cause I am tired of doing it again and again, and it is strange because the loneliness creeps into me and I let myself being sad and dark and let people think I don't want to be in touch with them when secretly I am dying because I miss them. Maybe because I don't think I will ever meet the kind of people that accepts and appreciates me for who I am. Its tiring to find that people who understand me and the way I bring myself to this world, and the scare of being judged.
I may be  a fun and bubbly person but once I get close to someone they slowly will notice my darker sides which usually, based on my experience, they'll run.

Today marks the day where mostly all my close friends have already start their new life in overseas, as studying there doing medic/dentistry. I am genuinely happy for them but I can't help thinking they are leaving my alone here, in this strange place with strange people. Its not the same anymore. Things changed.

But on the other side, I am ready to grow and to develop a new person I always wanted to be. I don't know exactly what is it but there's a lot of possibilities may come. I want to be a Bad Kid, Crazy Kid, or maybe this is the time where I just become more private as a person. I don't know. What the heck. Here's to the future, and to the kids who are not afraid of changing.

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